ahh, the year is finally over. some big changes happened this year: some old friends are no longer in my life, some friends have moved in to fill that place, some friends started dating, some friends were messed around with, in that marvelous high school fashion. some pretty spectacular things happened: leaps and bounds being at the top. i never thought id have the courage to get out there and do what i did, and im so glad i did it. choreographing a solo seemed so much easier when it was something that was a few years away. but i realized this year how much work it really was, and how much of myself id pour into it. im not entirely happy with it, but i reached my goal : get better at performing. that was what i worked on the entire year in dance. just do it all, full out, and really get into character. i think thats what saved my piece from being a complete and utter failure. spain was another milestone of my life. ive never been in a place that made me feel that way; i felt like i never wanted to leave. i saw so much art, and so much architecture, it was so hard to come back to concrete and space. i miss that on every street, there was something beautiful, especially in barcelona. the art i saw was just incredible. chuck close, salvador dali, picasso...i cant put into words how amazing it was. barcelona is my favorite place in the world. the reina sofia museum in madrid was another great place - i loved the modern art on the first floor, especially the pice with the plastic medical tubing hanging from the ceiling - ive never felt like that before. it felt like it was rain, but it stayed there. amazing. i cant put it into words. i really grew this year. i learned a lot about myself, and about friends, and about places. i became interested in new things, and lost some old intrests. all of these changes really affected my personal life and relationships that ive had for years. before, it was the two of us against the world. and this year, we both changed so much that we stopped moving along the same track. i'll always remember what we had, it was special, but now we've moved on to bigger and better things, and have started to become the people we are going to be for the rest of our lives. and im thankful that i had those years together. but back to currently: even the school has had some great changes. the most obvious being the lack of a library. fire became the joke of the school. the smell became part of us (literally - when you left the school, you still smelled like fire). we had an hour and a half lockdown. it should have been more frightening than it was. ive learned to appreciate my friends more, and to make the most of the time i have with them (especially one that i have to say goodbye to for the entire summer - thank god shes not leaving for good though). ive gotten so much closer to some people, ive learned to trust at least 1 person with all of my inner thoughts, something which i had a hard time with before. ive come to some pretty interesting relevations about myself and what i believe in and who i want to be.

all in all, this year has been amazing. if i could, i'd do it all again. not to change anything, but to remember how i felt during it all.